Most of times, one is thinking about other people’s egos .. other people’s ego issues, mind games and what not.. but very rarely do we sit and evaluate our own standing on these parameters. Then come along some stressful conditions and situations which make us sit up and take into account that our own standing
is no matter of a moral high, but questionable to say the least.

Our ego snares up and shows its ugly head when we find it difficult to apologize, boast unnecessarily, cannot take suggestions, will not share problems with our juniors, and do not share credit. It happens before you know it and knowing our mind and heart, those moments keep flashing in your head, drilling into you the fact that your ego needs a big wala check.

It is moments like these when you appreciate the people around you, for tolerating you and your ego, and for never letting go.

Ego comes with a huge appetite.


Sometimes you try to be everything..

and everyone..

Yes, sometimes you try to be everything and everyone. This is what I realised a few days back after a
certain event. Sometimes, you have such high expectations from others that lowering the bar for yourself and bringing some tolerance into the equation never comes in the equation. You forget how it was when
you were not good at things someone else required you to do and how you would be treated patiently and kindly when you erred. This is exactly what some things in life teach you, when someone you love and trust, finally shows you the mirror.

High expectations? Yes.
The other crucial factor here is what you want to be and the difference between the idealistic you and the person that you are. Growing up, knowing your parents and their work, you wish to be just like them,
perfect and proficient in their field. And then sometimes you forget that it is their 20 years of experience that makes them who they are and you ALSO forget that Rome was not built in a day. You try to do things like them, you try to see things from their view, you think of how your parents would approach a certain thing and when the idealistic you does not want to disappoint, you start shielding your shortcomings from the people who love and take on more than you can deliver, more than you can complete.

And then, if you are lucky to have such beautiful human beings as your parents as I do, there will come a moment in time when there will be that soft touch on your shoulder, the experienced eye who knows the crumbling self inside, the knowing smile who knows your shaky belief.. who will stop you, hold your hand firmly and tell you

It’s alright if you say no. It is alright to be upset. It is alright if you do not do everything. 

It is alright.